I’ll be honest—this one isn’t easy to write.
For the past few months, I’ve been absent from something I committed to: showing up consistently, not just as a business owner, but as a person. This blog was meant to reflect that. And the truth is, I haven’t been here because I’ve been walking through something I didn’t fully know how to put into words.
I lost someone who meant a lot to me. Not casually—this was someone I saw real intention with. Someone I didn’t just date, but someone I was building toward something with. There was vision there. There was direction. There was purpose behind it.
And losing that… it does something to you.
I’ve spent a lot of time asking questions I’m sure many of you have asked in your own lives:
How did we get here?
Why did this happen?
What could I have done differently?
Is there any way to restore what was lost?
And if I’m being real, there are still moments where I feel like I’m in the middle of that storm.
What a lot of people don’t see is that a big part of why I’m even here today—why this business exists in the way that it does—is because of the support I had from her. Not just in one area, but in all aspects of life. She believed in me. She saw something in me before a lot of other people did.
And it’s one thing to be seen. It’s another thing to be supported.
So when that’s gone, it can feel like you lost more than just a person. It can feel like you lost a piece of your foundation. I’ve caught myself wondering what this means for my future, for this company, for everything I’ve poured my time and energy into.
But here’s where things shift.
This company—HSL | 4:6—was dedicated to Christ. The foundation, the cornerstone, has always been built on faith. And what’s ironic is that it feels like right when I made that decision fully, that’s when the storm hit.
Now I’m in a position where I have to live out what I say I believe.
The anxiety, the stress, the overthinking—it’s all real. But so is the responsibility to surrender that. To not carry it myself. To not place it in people. But to give it to Him.
That’s not easy. It’s daily. Sometimes it’s moment by moment.
Lately, I’ve been leaning heavily into one prayer:
“Search me. Know my heart. Test my thoughts.”
Because I don’t want to carry bitterness. I don’t want to carry confusion that turns into resentment—toward her or toward God. I’ve been asking for that to be replaced with clarity, with peace, with understanding… and even gratitude.
And something I’ve noticed is this—when I pour into others, when I serve without overthinking it, when I show up for people the way I know I’m called to… there’s a kind of peace that follows. It’s not forced. It’s not temporary. It’s steady.
So right now, I’m in a rebuilding phase.
Not just in business—but in mindset, in faith, in identity.
And part of that rebuilding is accepting a hard truth: I did lose something. And I have to trust that there is something ahead that I can’t fully see yet.
That requires trust. Real trust.
If you know me personally, if we’ve built any kind of connection, I ask that you keep me in your prayers. Not for things to go back to how they were—but for clarity moving forward. For discipline over emotion. For alignment with what God is actually preparing me for.
And for anyone reading this who can relate—even in a different way—just know this:
You’re not alone in it.
If you’re in a storm right now, don’t just ask why you’re there. That question doesn’t always lead anywhere productive. Start asking what you’re meant to see in it. What’s being revealed? What’s being refined?
Because peace isn’t always found outside the storm. Sometimes it’s revealed right in the middle of it.
Focus on today. Handle what’s in front of you. Trust that tomorrow will take care of itself.
And most importantly—stay open to what God is trying to show you, even when it doesn’t look the way you expected.
I’m walking that out right now, just like many of you.
One step at a time.
